When the wings
Of a black bird sings
A song of wonder
A song of hope
My heart flutters
Looking for wonders
Far beyond these kitchen walls
Something brighter calls
It tells of summer
It tells of spring
My eyes widen
And look to hide in
The call of the dance
Of summery days
A time of freedom
A time of heat
When I could live
And I could give
My heart to another
Someone new
Handsome
And true
When I could dance
And sweet romance
With the man of summer’s hue
Sun kissed and smiling
Laughing
Dancing
There we would lie
Under a drunken sky
With the wine of summer’s dew
Drunk on sun
Drunk on you
Intoxicated hearts
Like stealing tarts
From the window pane
Where I’m the same
Dark kitchen walls
Dark peeling halls
Summer’s gone
It’s winter’s dawn
And love is gone
Where it once shone
Like summery sun
Like flowers sprung
And now, I’m alone
I’m winter’s own
– Another poem. This one is a little late; I’ve been super sick. Think bronchial infection mixed with ear infection mixed with the flu from last week. So while I meant to post this right after the quote, I, unfortunately, could barley muster the energy to go to school, and then to volleyball practice, where I could barley move. Excuses, I know. Oops.
Anyways, this poem. A little different, and I’m not quite sure where in the world it came from. I’m thinking is stems from my and my best friend’s talk about guys, love, summer, winter, fall. And it all kinda fell into my head in the format you see above.
How many movies in one’s lifetime, how many books, do we read and see about summer romances? Grease, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, Dear John, The Last Song, etc. But sometimes we don’t get to see what happens after the happy couple finally get together. What do they do? What happens if they break up? What happens if it doesn’t work out? Then what? That’s kind of how I read this poem, and kind of the story behind it. A young girl has a summer romance, that ends when the leaves begin to fall. But she really did like him, and now, she’s alone again in her home, that reflects, in way, how her heart is – dark, and in need of a reno, so to speak.
One thing to note on this one, is that the girl in the poem is not me. I had a quick summer fling a year ago, when I was out of town, but it barley lasted long enough to get it off the ground, and I can hardly count it as a relationship. In fact, I was the one who broke it off fairly quickly. But that also make me think; was I too quick, too harsh? Was I only afraid to give it a chance? Is that why I’m afraid that I’ll be the one alone while all my friends get married? Then I remember, that I’m not the only person who wonders if they are going to be ‘forever alone’. Everybody is afraid, to some extent, that they will never find ‘the one’, or find somebody who loves them, flaws and all. It’s just harder when you feel like you are alone in feeling that way.
So, I’m waiting for love, and hoping, in a secret way, that I’ll find a summer romance…and be able to keep it longer than the summer heat. Because when that fades, there’s nothing left but cold. And I want someone to be there through the cold. Trivial, in it’s own way, but true.
I love how you play with the seasons and let them tell the story. 🙂
Thanks. It’s funny how some seasons you relate with different memories, and different thoughts, colors, feelings. 🙂